Well, had my weekend well-spent with Love, who drove me around searching for good food, nua-ing together at his house and shopping !

He's always so nice and dotes on me, making me feel a little guilty sometimes. I'm not someone who can express how i feel, well enough for the other party to notice. I feel that sense of insecurity in him, not knowing whether do i truly love him anot. Indeed, i do. I love him more than anything else in the world. I always wanted to see him, feel his palpitating heartbeat, his exceptionally warm hands, and his to-die-for smiles. I love to look at him when he drives, i love to see him dancing in his car seat when he drives, i love to see him eating that long-awaited seaweed shaker fries when he drives, i love to see him acting so gay, i love to see his name appear on my facebook notifications, i love him laughing at my silly acts, i love to see him sleeping in my arms. I just simply love him for everything. But he just can't seem to notice it. Am i too discreet about it ? I don't know. I don't know what else should i do to make him feel loved and happy. Hearing his sad past relationship, i really want to make a difference this time. I want him to be the most happy man in the world, i want him to feel how being loved is all about. He has made known to me that he wants this to work out between the both of us. I want it to work too. I'm tired of falling in and out of love. It's tiring to start the whole process all over again. I'd love to start a family with him, as i know he's somebody which i can put my whole heart into. I may not be this firm in my last few relationships, but now, this moment, i just know, I WANT HIM TO GROW OLD WITH ME.

For now, i just want Old Bean and Old Bean's to accept him. Old Bean's thinks that he's too old for me, and Old Bean thinks that he may not be the right one cause we just started. Love was quite depressed when he heard the conversation between Old Bean's and me.

Baby, if one day u could see this, i just wanna tell u,

The clock's striking midnight soon, and i'm keeping my eyes wide open so that i could call Love and tell him,

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY LOVE :)