It has been a long time I was woken up by loud thunderstorms and flashing lightnings.Today afternoon was like a torture for me, got shocked and almost screamed.

Flipping through my drawers and I found a book on pyschological test:




Sleeping poses tells you who you really are




When you sleep, you will always....

A) Sleep like a cat, cuddle yourself up like a ball
B) Sleep sideways
C) Sleep with face-up
D) Cuddle your pillow and sleep sideways
E) Sleep with face-down







Those who chose A...
You are always so indecisive, when coming to deciding things, you will think it over and over again.You are unsatisfied with the reality and no plans for your future.The only thing you like to do is to lay back and daydream.

Those who choose B...
You are a person whose trustable, do things with responsibilty and think before you act.No matter where u are, be it work, school or outside, you are always so popular among people.The only thing that pulls u down is that your heart's quite small and no patience.

Those who choose C...
You are reckless and rash.Doesn't think of the consequences.Likes to set those goals that are not realistic.

Those who choose D...
As this sleeping pose looks sweet, that means you like people to praise and dote on you.You do things with passion and likes helping people.Straightforward and determined to get what you want.

Those who choose E...
Sleeping with face down means breaking all means of contact with the surroundings, because you don't have strong determination and the fight-on spirit, often leads to low self-esteem and self-destruction, and self-centred personality.




So, which are you ?

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Woke up at 2.30pm today, which is like a miracle for me ? Cause I always wake up at 5 or 6 in the evening ! Haha !

Took train to Plaza Sing to meet Fen and two other Audition friends.

And guess what?

I'm the earliest.

Second miracle of the day.Well, as do people say, miracle always happen.Tsk.

Met up with Fen first as the other 2 will be late.Went to walk walk around and entertain ourselves with window shopping.

Then, went over to the arcade at the MRT station there.

OMG, I saw the shadows of my past.What I saw was all little hooligans, I shall call them, acting like as if the own the acrade, laughing and "donating" money generously to the arcade.

Cool, I fianlly got away from this type of life.

They finally appeared.One was called Joanne, the other was called Erica.

Played DDR and my skills were all gone, very "diu lian".Played Para Para also failed.Decided not to step into that arcade anymore.Haha ! Don't quite like the people there.

After that, went over to foodcourt for dinner and we had a fun time talking.Fen left at about 7pm as she needs to attend her father's birthday party.

They accompanied me slacked till he punched out from work.They were quite fun people to be with, probably due to the common interest that we hav, AUDITION.

Took train home with him after that.

Tomorrow, boring day.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Supposed to go pay respects to my Ah gong and Ah ma this morning, but I'm having a terrible headache so in the end did not go.

Woke up at 12 pm, the wardrobe came.

Damn, it's so awesome! Finally a new wardrobe for me.It is those sliding door type and I love it so much.

So I started packing in all my clothes and finished around 2.

Then my study table came.Heavy and small.But just nice for my room to accomodate this 2 new furnitures.

After everything, went back to sleep again.Woke up around 6.30pm, went to find Mum for some dinner at her workplace.Cycled as I'm so lazy to walk.Waited for Dad to come and went to SSC myself.

I went to Giant to get some sanitary napkins.As I was paying money, there's this father and son behind me.I heard their conversation.

Son : Papa, what is that Jie Jie buying ?
Father : That is tissue.

OMG?! The cashier was like laughing! Was it embarrassed or what? Tissue?! Did we girls put tissue at "there" ?

Quickly paid money and walked away, with my face flushing red.I will always remember their face.Tsk tsk.

Reached home and played Audition and again, tomorrow will be a boring day again.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

So glad that I can have you back.

I promise that I will change, and make you love me more than before.

Woke up at 3 plus today, packed and cleared up my wardrobe.Gosh, I do realised that I will have alot of un-worn clothes which are kept in there for so long abd left untouched.

A big bag cleared and I still feel that my new wardrobe won't be able to " tahan " all my clothes.No matter what, I so gonna squeeze everything in.

Met him at 7 plus, chit-chatted a while at void deck.Talked about everything and the feeling came back.OMG.How good does it feel ?

Tee came to fetch me at 9, along with Ryan, Delia and Fen.Drove all the way to Ryan's house at Hougang.

Not wanted to go, but have already rejected Ryan and Fen loads of times, so, ya.

They played Mahjong for like 2 rounds and I'm so bored can.Watching them play and disturbing them sometimes, but overall is fun, except for the Mahjong part.

Tee drove me home as Fen is tired.So reached home about 3 and here I am, blogging about my boring day. ( You can choose not to read. (: )

Gonna go pay respects to my Ah gong and Ah ma tomorrow, and and and, my new wardrobe and my new study table !! Longing for it to come !!

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Am I losing you bit by bit ? I don't know, but I know I hate the feeling.

Seems to drift further away from you, and I don't really understand you anymore.You seems to be so scheming.

My life is in a turmoil now.Empty yet so full with problems.

I would love to walk down the streets, arm-in-arm, ignoring all the stares from unrelated people.

Not really in the mood to go out anywhere, but still wishing for somebody who could brighten up my day to ask me out and make me forget about what I have been thinking all these days.

Playing games with friends whom I've not seen before, yet so close and truthful laughter, seemed to be the best solution, better than facing those people whom not very happy with me.At least they don't know what's happening.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Feeling sleepy today, maybe it's the amount of beer I drank.Not alot, but enough to make my body feel hot.

Actually don't feel lke going out yesterday, got pulled out with Ryan, his girlfriend and Fen.

Went to meet Fen around 10 plus and drove off to Odeon Towers.

Slacked at MacDonald's for a while, chit-chatting, while waiting for Ryan and company to come.Talked alot of things with, seems like never-ending things to talk between us.

They came around 12 plus, Tee, Ryan, the girlfriend, Heng and the other guy I've never seen before.Went up to The Loof, but, full, not enough place for 7 people.

So we spilt into 2 groups and drove off to a Thai disco pub, opposite People's Park.Reached there, closed.Tsk tsk.

So went to Narciuss, also Thai disco pub.

Ambience there not bad.Live band, Thai songs and good-looking people.Oh, I'm so realistic.

Joked around and loads of jokes circulated around the table.Ordered 2 towers and got 1 free, Chang beer, not bad.For a bad drinker like me.

Tee went hay-wired and kept asking me to drink.Couldn't take it no more and still asked me to drink.Tsk.

Left there around 2.30am and Tee and Heng went to Dragonfly for their friend's birthday party there.

So Fen, Ryan, Delia and me went to Plaza Sing.I wanted to find him.

Reached home around 4 and feeling quite down.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Must really stop myself from playing Audition till so late everyday, stupid addiction!!

Went out with Fiona, Yania and Tong.It has been a long time since I went out with them.Went Plaza Sing, slacking here and there.

Saw all the crews workin at store, kinda miss them though.Missed working with them, missed all the jokes that we cracked, the complaints we beared during customer in and the small quarrels that patched up soon after.

They are the only reason that I wanted to go back, but, working under a boss like that, no thanks.

Having nothing to do makes us feel so restless so we went back home around 7 plus.He finished work at that time so we went home together.

Slept through out in the train, both of us were so damn tired.

Tomorrow will be meeting him, a long time since we spend time together.Love it.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

My muscles in my calves hurt, from all that walking yesterday.OMG.Dad says I walk like a duck.

I will never go to IT fair again, unless I want to get something.Squeezing with people and I haven't got enough oxygen due to my height, all I could smell was just armpits, armpits and armpits.

A disadvantage to my height.Tsk Tsk.

Fell asleep yesterday night, slept at around 12 plus.Amazingly is, I dreamt of a nightmare and got awaken up.Too scared to fall back asleep, I woke up and watched some movies in my lappy.

"Connected" is a good show though. :))

Went downstairs to buy some breakfast, the aunties there were like so shocked that I went down so early.

Continued to watch some more shows on television and finally got tired and fell back asleep.

I missed him, it's been a week since I ever met him.Wanted to meet up with him tomorrow, but he's waking up at 6 later, so I doubt he will stay as much as awake after his class.But maybe I'll try?


i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Went back to the chalet yesterday, which is like not as fun as the day before.Not as much laughter.But overall, it was fun.

Slept at 6 in the morning, which I'm normally doing now.Imagine when I start school, OMG.Woke up at 6 in the evening and waited for Dad to come home to dine outside.

Went to Sun Plaza, had our dinner at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe.The food there seriously s**k.OMG.Wasted like 30 bucks just to have a lousy dinner.

Teached Steph some Chinese on her 10 years series after that.

Well, will be starting on my new job tomorrow, which is only like 3 hours? Easy easy job, near to my house too.

Decided not to go back to that place anymore, makes me feel so sick and tired.The people there can't be trusted anymore.They have taught me how cruel this world is and how weak can a human be.I'm not needed there anymore and I don't see the need for me to stay there anymore.

Will probably be going back store next week to return my uniform.And after that, I WILL BE FREE.Muahahahaha.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

2nd puff of seesha today!!

Met up with Fen at YCK MRT station and drove off to Haji Lane.Couldn't find our way there and turned here and there.Tsk.

Settled down at the Reis Cafe again, took a place outside the cafe this time, and ordered the seesha with strawberry flavouring.

But this time, is not as nice as the first time I went.The flavouring taste weird and not that very smooth at first, compared to grape+mint.

She didn't smoke much though, she doesn't like the taste, although it's not very thick.

She called her friend, Ryan, to come along as we got bored and wanted some moree company.So he cabbed down to Haji Lane on cab, as Fen kept on pestering him to come faster.

He reached there about 8 and basically it's only me smoking, as the both of them don't quite like the taste.I just sat there quietly and smoked, answering Ryan's question once in while, laughing my arse off about what Ryan said, while puffing away.

Actually Fen wanted to drive him back, but he said that he's going drinking with his friends at Odeon Towers, The Looof.

I was like, "isn't that the one I went with my Cynthia and company on my birthday?" Fen wanted to go as she has never been there before.So off we go to Odeon Towers, just beside Chijmes.

Was nervous at first, as I don't know all their friends and abit shy, the usual me.Tsk.

She did a parallel parking!! At Odeon Towers!! In less than 5 minutes!! AMAZING.

Back to what I was saying, we arrived there first and his 3 friends came later.They chatted hapily and siping their alcohol, whereas I was like sitting there, enjoying my coke.Ryan and the other friend called Ah Bao, or something like that, kept asking me questions, and they were quite friendly, actually.Felt comfortable with them actually, which is good.Tsk.

Left that place about 10 plus and reached home at 11 plus.Quite tired but an enjoyable day. :)))

PS:I watched "Van Helsing just now on channel 5, and it's AWESOME.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Today's is the day when he was born!!


Didn't really expect that he would wanted to go out with me today as last year his birthday wasn't spend with me.Tsk.

Well, I woke up at 2pm and gave me a surprise by appearing at my doorstep when I opened the door.

Shouldn't I be the one whose supposed to give him the surprise? Baddy bad bad me.

He fell asleep on my bed while waiting for me to prepare, which is like so cute!!

Okay, at least to me he looks cute enough.

Everything done, went to Sun Plaza as he suggested that I should fill something with my tummy, which he expected.

Idiot. :)))

Ate at the foodcourt and went to the library and read some books.

Went to AMK hub after that to get a game of pool.And lost to him each round.Tsk.

Just not on form today, cue ball always doesn't go the way I wanted it to be.He's pro at pool, I want him to teach me. :)))

Actually wanted to get some place nice to sit down and get him a slice of cake, but, couldn't find any, not even TCC.

Well, just settled with a slice of raspberry cake, which I feel abit guilty about it.

Didn't do much for him on his birthday, feel so bad about it.

I will give him a better one next year.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

I got my first puff of seesha today!! Cool man.

Steph, Fiona and me went to Haji Lane to try out the seesha thingy and we settled for a shop named "Reis Turkish Cafe".

Went in and sat down on the carpet on the floor.I came to know that you can actually choose flavours!! There's cherry, grapes, mint and even cappuccino!! Cool!!

So we decided on grapes plus mint.

At first we didn't know how to puff it.Even when the staff there showed us how.There's loads of smoke when he puffed it but for us, little came out.Trying and trying.Tsk.

As it's our first time, we kept coughing and loads of phlegm consolidated in our throats.Didn't quite get used to it.Chatted and waited for Qal and Caron to come.

After a while, we got used to it and the 5 of us were like smoking like hell away and we went off at around 10 plus as Qal needs to go book in for camp.

I will go back there once more.The feeling damn nice, totally diifferent from smoking ciggarettes.Not addictive at all.Just smoking water and flavourings, not smoking those nicotines or whatsoever in the cigarettes.

Should go try it.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Everything went so wrong for me now.

Felt like friends leaving me one by one.

All alone now.

Even he's in KL now and some sort like ignore me.Said that he would meet me tomorrow but told me that he wants to stay there 1 more day.

Well, what the hell did I do wrong?

I don't know.

Being at home alone is not fun at all.I want to go back to my old days where I could meet up with my friends and have loads of fun together.

I guessed it's impossible now.

An urge in my head tells me to end my life now, so that the troubles will go away with me and I'm free.

I may be a little paranoid, I may be a little hot-tempered, I may be a little too busybody and likes to think that everyone is my "slave" and I'm the "princess".

I'm just being myself.

I'm not perfect, but I'm giving the best I can be.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

What the hell??!! I don't see any top-up machine here??!! Do we have to just tap the cashcard on the wall??!!

Joke of the day, seriously.

Went Plaza Sing walked around.I went back to store and talked to Auntie Ngee Siang.I missed her.She's gonna quit soon as her daughter-in-law is giving birth and she needs to help her take care of her kids.

Great, loads of people are leaving the store.Soon there will be no more MacDonald's in Plaza Sing anymore.With that type of boss around, who would want to work with her?

Might as well close down.

Tsk.

Bought loads of shoes.I got myself a pair of pumps and a pair of slippers, Lao Ba got a pair of leather shoes and a pair of some sort slippers for him self, and Fen got a pair of pumps and a sandals for her herself.

Feels like a "buying shoes" day!!

Went Upper Thomson Road and have our mini dinner there, having Roti Prata and Milo Dinosaur.Reached home at around 10 plus, all thanks to Fen cause she drove us home.

I'm starting to get worried that I won't get my hospital sponsorship cause I haven't got a reply from then after I sent out the application.

Hope that I get huh.

"No need to get any excuses, people may not know what are you like but I do know.You will only regret when you lose them and realised the consequeces of it.I've done so much for you, helped you out as much as I could but this is what all I get back.Forgotten and thrown to a side.Only when you got into trouble or you are in doubt and need my help will you come find me.Will I be very busy for my starting of school? I don't think so.I stayed at home everyday, trying to entertain myself with lappy and television. thinking who will ask me out, and everytime only her will ask me how am I.Even if I die one day, nobody would know.No need contact me anymore, I've totally given up.Thanks sister.It's tearing me in and out.Again, THANKS."

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Brrrr....

Raining outside now, shivering with cold as I just stepped out of the shower.I thought the rain had stopped after a few days of flooding and now it started again.

WTH.

I hate rainy days, dampen my mood to go anywhere.

Tsk.

Went out with Fen today.She came and fetched me from my house.Went Funan to have our lunch and look around for lappys.I got an idea of what I wanted.Fujitsu, hmmm?

Ate our lunch and went Suntec Convention Centre.They have this "Career and Education Fair" and she wanted to go there and see all the "consolidated" schools there.Went around a few booths and they explained to her the benefits of the course and the school.

Gotten sick of the questions they keep using.

"What is your highest qualifications?"
"What type of course you want?"
"Actually this course is recommended......"

Blah blah blah.

Aarrgghh, gotten sick of it.Finally got out of the place when her hands were all full of brochures from the various school and how I wished I could pluck off my legs.

Tsk.

Went to Parklane after that to satisfy ourselves with a game of Audition and played till like 9pm?

Drove down to AMK Hub and have our dinner.Realised that even only moving my fingers vigorously will cause my energy to go down and hungry.So peeps, if you want to go on a diet ny not eating, and you scared that you might go hungry fast, DO NOT MOVE YOUR FINGERS TOO MUCH.

We ordered western food and her portion was humongous!! The fried rice plus the cutlet.

So ah fat, if you want a filling meal, western food at S11(in front of Jubilee Complex) is the right choice for you!! HA!!

Trained home and it started to rain.Reached home, looking like a "drenched chicken" (luo tang ji).I HATE IT WHEN IT RAINS.

Rain rain go away, come again another day.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Didn't blog for like 2 days, been busy playing Audition all these days.Nothing better to do, slept at around 6 everyday and waking up at 6 in the evening next day.

Ya, this is what I call "no life".My life seems so peaceful and quiet right now and all seems to be in place.But I couldn't get used to a non-hectic life and practically doing nothing at home and few friends would contact me unless they need help.

Well, that's me, I guessed, where people will get sick of me one day.

Tsk.

Been thinking alot these few days when I'm at home.Not doing anything makes me think more and analyse things better.Not really noting down everything that I thought or else this post will never-ending.

Having going to bed when I'm not really that tired tires me out.Waking up to a afternoon where I will be headlessly doing nothing again really bores me.Wanted to go back to store and work, but, thinking back that I will have to work with that B***H again makes me feel so ever reluctant.I heard that she's now macam co-operating with CentrePoint Louise, having everything in our store that they have.

What a joke.

Plaza Sing's Mac will never be on par with CentrePoint's Mac.They get better benefits there and they are so willing to work for Louise, where ours, HA!! Only wants to work to get a salary and make a living, not wanting to help her out at all.

Our store will collapse one day, having this type of b***hy boss.

Tomorrow will be going to Suntec Concvention Centre with Fen, hopefully I can get a job. i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Have you ever seen "Unexpected Access" on Channel 5?

If you are the faint-hearted type, better not.

I watched this programme and it grossed me out, totally.

This episode is about slaughtering pigs and they filmed the whole process!!

Only one word, GROSS.

They showed how the pigs were cleaned thoroughly, with sanitizer and how they slaughter them with the least inhumane method.And, that is, to stun them with electric of 5,000 volts and cut their throats.

OH MY GOD.

They drained the blood out and carried out the rest of the process.

I don't think I will touch pork for the moment, having seen all that.

Well, did nothing much the last 2 days.Went to work yesterday and had quite a good day there, though tiring.

I realised that when you go work there once in a while it's actually enjoying.

But of course, it would be fun without that B***H there, which, unfortunately, she's there.She talked to me ever so nicely and even asked me how's my school and everything.

Fakey people are on the loose nowadays.

So peeps, beware!! There's not only 1 fakey person, there's loads more!!

I seriously wanted to find a job but in vain.Felt bad when my parents gave me money when they know I'm not working now.

I'm so going to find a job, no matter what.

Went to Auntie's house today, to deliver her porridge to her as she can't get out of her house cause she just had her minor operation on her nose.Felt odd as I don't hang out with her alone most of the time.

Then, met up with Fen and Dad for dinner and walked around AMK Hub.Found out that actually they could get along well?

Glad that they could chat well, or else I would be "hamburgered" between them, ha!!

Will be slacking at home again tomorrow, gosh, when will I ever get a job?


i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥