Are we really ending it here? I don't know.A sense of relieve just fell over me when you said that two words.

Maybe I was getting scared of you, with all your msges coming in all day long, where you were not doing it so before, and it's sort of getting on my nerves.I'm not saying that you are bothersome, just that I'm not used to it though.

Well, all good things have to come to an end.I'm sick of it when you always put those 2 words along your mouth and saying it out whenever you feel like saying and regret after that.

You have the right to say it but I don't? Where's the logic in that?

Just go, before I change my mind.

Hope that you stay safe and all the best for your career and a girl which can love you more than I do.

Peepos, yes, I broke up with him again, and I'm not the one who initiated it, so don't ask me why.And I'm not very sad though, just feeling numb and null inside.

I'm always the one who's not giving out my best and it's always not enough for whatever I do.I'm always in the wrong, always don't know how to think of his feeling and this and that.

I'm sick and tired of it.I just want to stay single now, with nothing to worry and concentrate on my studies.


i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

If my intelligence allow me, I would want to invent a time machine, where I could wind back to life in secondary school, where life back then were much more simpler and friends were more true.

Unfortunately, I'm just a freaking future nurse with a path filled with darkness, waiting to devour me anytime when I lost my way.

Well, should be contented with what you have right?

Went out with my girlfriends today.Thought it was Yani who jio us out, but in the end, it's Laopo.

We met up at Bugis and went for lunch first.Laopo came later and we went shopping at Parco.

Everyone didn't change much though.Only the fact that we shed off our oily and sticky looks when we were all striving hard at PS#19 and put on make-ups and chio clothes.Ha!

We were stuck between watching movies and sheesha.Most of us voted for sheesha and off we went to Haji Lane! Or Arab Street, whatever it is.

We walked around and settled for a shop which I didn't manage to catch the name.

For all those who were wondering shisha is, it is a single or multi-stemmed (often glass-bottomed) water pipe for smoking.Originally from Abbasid Empire in Iraq that ruled the Arab and the Islamic World.A shisha operates by water filtration and indirect heat. It can be used for smoking marijuana, herbal fruits, or tobacco.

We chose apple flavour.But the taste is weird and throat-pricking.Reis Cafe is better.

We had to wait for Qal and so, we did what girls always like to do, take photos!!


Qal came around 5 plus.He was like a "superstar", with us wanting to take a photo with him.Ha!


i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

We got back together, and as loving as before.

Thanks everyone who adviced and helped me through my difficult times.Really appreciated it.

Went through difficult times and the deep struggles within whether to end it or not.

I almost gave up, with all the heartbreakening events and the disappointments.

Lucky he didn't gave up on me, and his love kept me holding to this relationship.





Time for some updates on my life, enough of him him him.Ha!

Hui Ning, her sister, Cindy, Zhao Yue and me did our videos for our project work.We shot scenes of ZY being a patient with constipation and Hui Ning as the nurse attending to her.I'm the camera"woman" and Cindy and Hui Ning's sister became the sort of calafare.Ha! We kept on laughing and laughing, loads of NGs.

The other project were on this scenario on this old man smoking for a very long time and he has a case of breathlessness.And, I'M THAT OLD MAN.

Credits to my friends and it was so tak-glam! Had to wear the "superstar pyjamas pants" ( we named that damn lok kok pants this named cause ZY worn it to look like an auntie and Hui Ning's sister also used it many times for her own project work.), plus my Dad's super big shirt and a cap.OMG.What a image-destructing role! LOL.

The worst thing is, he came to my house and saw part of the shooting process and I was so damn PS! Aarrgghh.

Well, we wrapped up the shooting at 8 plus.Though tiring, but it's fun. :))) Hope to get high marks for it.

Tomorrow's school starts at 8.God damn it.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Isn't human funny at all? They will only start to treasure things when they lose it and some don't even know they are losing it bit by bit.

Don't take things for granted.They don't owe you anything and they are not obliged to do anything for you.

Well, I and him are over now.Don't ask me why, cause I also don't know the reason.

I admit that it's my fault and shouldn't treat him that way.But I was really fed up by loads of things and he kept on biting on me and won't let me off.

2 more days and it will be our 2 years anniversary.I'm always hoping for this day to come but I guessed I won't have the reason to wait for it again.

Why do things just have to turn out this way?

Since being with me gives you so much of suffering, I'm willing to let you go.Giving you the freedom to court other girls, doing whatever you like without having your mind on that person.

Go, just go, you're freed.

Don't ever turn back anymore, there's a brighter future ahead.You once said that you wanted a girl who would love you with all her heart.I'm not qualified to be that girl.

Sorry that you've wasted 2 years on me, wasted your love on me.I can't repay you back and I don't know how.

But, I do still love you.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

I found back my ez-link card! All thanks to that samariyans who found back my card and gave it back to Sembawang MRT station staff.And special thanks to Miss Jamaliah who help me called NYP over and over again.

And, of course, Mason, who passed some of his luck to me.

Well, after all the "suay" things that happen to me, things are going well for me now, at least I don't feel so "suay" now.

And and and, I found back my ring too! Dropped inside my bag and I didn't realise it till I cleared out my bag a day ago.What a muddlehead I am.

School's starting to stress now, with all the due dates coming for the projects, and the oncoming test for Biological Science next week.Aarrgghh.

I miss all of my friends, all those whom I can joke endlessly and doesn't fear of offending anybody.I miss all the window shopping and stuffs.Really hope for 24 May to come faster.

Thanks to Ryan and Fenn who accompanied me when I was really down.I love you guys.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Confused right now, don't know what to do.

Stuck between freedom and protection.

Just so out of luck this few days.Daddy don't want help me pay phone bill, so have to use prepaid card now, quarelled with friends, him.And, guess what, the very first day that I wore flips flops to school and I'm caught by that freaking tutorial lecturer of mine.

The very first time in this month that I wore, fcuk that old woman.

I want back my luck, who steal it away from me?! LOL.

Thanks Ryan and Fen who tries to keep me happy, accompanying me to play L4D, tries to tell lame jokes and made me laugh.Trying to accomodate my time, and thanks to Delia too, for treating me to Ma Masion on Ryan's birthday, made my day a little.Really appreciate that.Love you peeps.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Why do things like to happen in a sudden?

Lady Luck just isn't smiling at me, where it always do.

My soul has been sucked away in loneliness.

Feeling suffocated and my "oxygen" has been taken away by my own hands.

Just isn't my ownself.

Tried to demolish the castle but it just stays rooted inside.

I did nothing that hurts you, and my conscience is clear.

Please believe me.

That day when you walked away, I just sat there, helplessly hope you will look back,

but, sad thing is, you didn't.

I walked aimlessly around, wondering nothing on my mind.

Only one thought ran through, "Would you believed what I said?"

You would rather listened to others except me.

Hurts me to say that.

Loads Of "aNtZ"

Li Hia a.k.a Desiree

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

I got into Chinese Orchestra Yang Qin! OMG.Damn happy!

I was like 2 minutes late for my Nursing Lab class and Ms Serene was like sort of nagging at me for it.Tsk.Damn her.Oops.

We learned how to feed patients that couldn't eat independently.We brought our own food and fed each other.And Cindy was like complaining that she's hungry! Haha!

We were blindfolded to feel how "scary" it is to be fed.Trust them to think of this idea.

Hui Ning was the first to be fed, then Cindy.Hui Ning fed her with the food combined all together.Rice crispies, peach jam, cornflakes and bread.

Cindy kept shouting that the food combined together tastes horrid.Laughed and laughed non-stop.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

In the school library again, waiting for time to pass, in short, WASTING TIME.

Managed to get into school's Chinese Orchestra, plucked strings section, without much effort.Still not knowing which instruments I'm gonna have.Hopefully is Yang Qin.

School work are piling up, with all the projects and presentations we gonna have.Tsk.And and and, most of the studying we have to do it in our online management system.So troublesome.Tsk.

Not much things to write, just updating what's happening to me in school.

Boring.

Missing all my friends.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥

Anybody out there who tries to wake Ryan up via bombing the phone, please don't waste your phone's batt, as HE WOULD NOT WAKE UP.

Ooops, accidentally said out his secret. * runs and hide *

Woke up at 2 plus today, supposed to go breakfast with Mum but I couldn't wake up.Tsk.

Watched "Forensic Heroes II", nice show okay! For those who likes Sherlock Holmes and forensic stuffs, this is the show for you.Totally in love with it.

Met up with Ryan at AMK Hub, and went to kill zombies again.Fen came around 9 plus, and Ryan went to work.

First time Fen and me completed a map, depending soley in ourselves.Great sense of accomplishment.Tsk.

Have to go for NYP Symphony Band's Welcome tea tomorrow, wonder what would they try to do with us.

i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥