Am I just too demanding just being a friend?

Emotions have been wrapping me so tight that I find it difficult to breathe.I just can't understand why am I feeling this way.

People said that it's fun, but I don't see it the same way? Or am I just being too sensitive?

Having to go to that place seems to be dragging me down.I've been anticipating it for months and even years but it doesn't turn out the same way that I wanted it to be.

I missed Cynthia, I missed Brenda, I missed Felicia, I missed Priscilla, I missed Wendy, I missed Fang Ru, I missed everyone.

There's an something in me that is crying out ever so loudly, so loudly even I can hear it even when I'm asleep, yearning to be freed.I want to cry, but I can't find the reason to.

I seem to be like creating alot of unsatisfaction in school.Or maybe I'm just being paranoid.Paranoid and loneliness are my best friend now, surrounding me whenever I go.

I'm just trying to be good, why can't you just give me a chance? I wanted you to treat me the way I treated you.I ain't some sort of saint, I'm just a human, just like you.Have you ever thought of how I felt? Have you ever put yourself in my shoes and think?

Just try it, and you will know.Ain't a very good feeling huh.

Well, maybe I'm just not worth being respected.

Loads Of "aNtZ"
Li Hia a.k.a Desiree i love walking in the rain, so nobody knows that i'm crying..♥