Friday, January 30, 2009
B***H and "hantu hitam" talked to me today, regarding my absence from work without valid reasons and me smoking with Yani at back door, leaving our stations unattended.B***H told me that I have attitude problems and I'm not matured enough.I may be 19 years old but my thinking still stuck at 15 years old.It's like what the f**k??!! She doesn't understand me well, or, should I say, she doesn't even bother to understand me, and she starts making personal statements about me.She went around telling people that I'm a gangster and ruined my reputation.She just sucks to the core.I hate her.She always demoralize me in front of many people and make me lose face.So she needs us to give her face but we don't need? We are humans too, we have emotions, not just her.When she needs you she will talk nicely, but when she doesn't, she will shout at you like nobody's business.She kept asking me whether I'm still interested in working in this store, and said that she would rather transfer me to Heeren than keeping me in her store.All the words she used made me felt that she doesn't want me in the store and get rid of me.What I hate the most was when she mentioned the incident about "idiot".Obvious that she's siding them and thinks that I'm bullying them.She told me that different people have different ways of interpreting things, and my body language shows that I'm not friendly and I'm a bad person.
But this is who I am.I don't respect people when they don't respect me.If I let them step over my head, they would think that I'm a idiot who let people bully.I will not change because of them.This is me, and this is Singapore.If you are not happy then get your smelly ass out of here.We don't need such people like you here.B***H said that she would talk to them but, I don't see her taking any actions against them? I only knew they kept pointing their fingers towards me and this is what I called, FAVOURITISM.F**king hell.
"I know you don't like me, B***H.You don't understand me so shut your ass up.Don't act as if you've known me through and out and tries me to correct me.You told me that when I go out to work society next time people will sure to kick me out of there.But let me tell you something, I became like that it's all because of you.You made me hate this store so much and the people there.You made me became so rebellious and ignorant of the managers.Don't you think that since you came to store so much things happened? Good managers were forced to transfer out and what type of management team you have now are all empty shells, so empty that crews can easily step over them like what Fiona and Yani did today.You are the one who made most of the youngsters go against you.Don't blame others but yourself.You shouted at us in front of so many people and that made you feel superior right? Don't blame me when I report how you treated us to that "old hag", I will.TRY ME."
When talking to them, I neither feel remorseful nor angry.I felt numb inside as I've already given up on this store.I would usually cry or felt down after they've "counselled" me.But today, NO.I've decided at the point of time when I knew of the news that I'm posted, nothing could spoil my day today.Today is the day when I'm freed of all the sufferings I have these 2 years and today is the start of my studying life.When I signed that violation letter, I felt happy.B***H made me write a performance review, promising tha I will improve on my punctuality, woork attitude and never NO SHOW again without notifying the shift manager.I just quickly wrote that and I punched out.
Went up to meet Fiona and Yani, bought some bubble tea and tako yaki balls.Happily chatting away and went home around 11.Met Ben on my way home and chatted with him too, under my block.Reached home around 1 and here I am, to blog.
Tomorrow gotta visit Steph, with him, so have to sleep early.Nights, peeps.
Loads Of "aNtZ"
Li Hia a.k.a Desiree
