These few days I felt empty inside, which I don't know why myself too? During on shift, I realised that nobody talks to me much.The others always have a conversation among themselves.Even him likes to joke around with the china crews and rarely talks to me.Maybe he's right, we don't have much topic to talk about.Not everybody in my cliques work everytime and only when they are working then I would feel much better inside.But somehow deep inside I could feel that they don't want to hang around with me much.Or am I thinking too much? I understand that they each have their own lives to live and could not always surround me all the time.Somehow I felt that I'm left out whenever I goes out with them.I could not blend in the topics that they discuss.

Him.He always joke around saying that he has wifes all around the world and I'm sick and tired of hearing it.Initially it sounded funny but as time goes by I feel quite insecure about it.What if it becomes a truth? What would I do? I've put in 101% of heart in this relationship and I don't want it to end yet again.Can't afford to lose him again.Damn it.

Today's Tony birthday.Still planning what to buy for him?

PS: 6 more days to Christmas!!