I started it because of you, and yet i'm doing all these alone.I feel so lost.I only want you.Guessed that you will never know. :D

i ♥ walking in the rain, so no one knows that i'm crying..

I feel so fucking depressed nowadays, and he has been the victim of my depression-ness.And i feel so fucking bad to always vent my anger out on him without giving him any warning, and he is always left confused as to why the volcano erupted again. i ♥ walking in the rain, so no one knows that i'm crying..

i ♥ walking in the rain, so no one knows that i'm crying..

Have been letting this blog rot for so so long.Was so lazy to write everytime.Don't even really want to on my laptop much now.

2009 has finally ended, loads of memories flashbacks like never-ending.All the laughters, tears, and quarellings shall be forgotten and this shall be a brand new year for all of us.Put all the unhappiness behind us and 2010 would be a better year. :)

Went to town with eye candy yesterday, and pink came to find us also.Wasn't really keen to celebrate the new year with the crowds, as i'm afraid what happened at christmas happen again.Still having bits and pieces of trauma inside, and he hasn't recovered fully yet.So, ya.We went arcade to relax ourselves and went to JCube for lan.It feels kinda weird, playing lan on the eve of new year.Pink came to find us after that, and we went to bencoolen street for supper.Bought some instant noodles(the first instant noodles of the year,HAHA).Went to parklane after that, for lan AGAIN.No entertainment, so lan would be the best choice.Played till 6.30 in the morning and went home.

My new year resolution for the year? TO SCORE BETTER THAN LAST YEAR.

What's yours?

i ♥ walking in the rain, so no one knows that i'm crying..

In the school library now, rotting away.School ends at 12 but got a nursing lab theory test at 5.What a bother! Sucha long break and i practically do nothing in the research carrel.Blogging would keep me busy for a while though, but not very long.Gahhh~

There are like 5 of us in the room, Andy's sleeping and the other 3 are doing their presentation for tomorrow.Bored, bored and bored.Studied those that i ought to and revise till i'm quite good with.I got a good feeling about this, cause i've prepared this test like a few days ago.Late revisions always don't work, at least for me.So, good results, come to meee!

Had my patient education presentation earlier this morning.Not really prepared for it, and i didn't really have much slides to talk about.And there's a picture of my messy room and Cindy could recognise it like almost instantly.OMG.She said so loudly and most of them could hear.My reputation is all gone.Sadded.I admit my room is a lil' messy, i can't help it okay! I can't find my stuffs when things are neat. XD

Next week would be my nusring lab skills test.Hope that the assessor would be Susan Loh, the other one always failed people.A few of my classmates under her failed and all under Susan Loh passed.I don't want to fail! I've failed once, although it's not this topic, the feeling wasn't good! Oh god oh god, please please, SUSAN LOH.

i ♥ walking in the rain, so no one knows that i'm crying..

I'm having pre-monday blues now, don't feel like going to school, not even a teeny weeny bit.Although things are picking up, i don't feel any warmth in school.Not any true friends which makes me look forward going to school.I feel like a soccer ball and will roll to anybody that lacks company.No more warmth hugs from friends and somebody to share my joy with.Feels just like a shell with no body inside.

Nobody could hear the deep cries within my heart and i got nobody whom i could really talk to.How i wished time could turn back and be a kid again.With nothing to care about and just play with friends, loads of them.Skinned knees heal faster than a broken heart.

i ♥ walking in the rain, so no one knows that i'm crying..

Has been letting this blog rot for wayyyy too long.Not that i have no time to write it, but nothing interesting to blog about.Who would want to read boring blog posts like what i did everyday, which is like almost the same thing every single day.NO LIFE.

And i'm missing the times with my friends, no matter whether it's mac, nss, or sembawang primary friends, am missing each and every one of them.But i'm a boring person to be with, i really don't know where to ask them to and when to come out.It's either they are busy or i'm busy.Tsk.Could we like at least go out once in a month? I'm bored, seriously BORED.With school, then home, then the next morning school again.The same old thing repeat and repeats.Don't even feel like going out during weekends anymore, my mood just gone, vanished.

With all the presentations and tests coming up, stress is starting to pile up on me.Just had my biology test last week and i got a C for that.Truly disappointing.I had an A before this.Quite a huge impact on me.Must really study hard and should stop skipping classes for beauty sleep. >.<

Met up with Ryan today, for L4D2.Didn't thought of meeting him till yesterday he replied my wall post and called me after that.He has finished his NS and ORD is today(although i don't know what the hell is ORD).Before that went to watch The Twilight Saga New Moon with eye candy while waiting for Ray to finish class.Went to watch at AMK Hub.Met up with Ryan and Ray at Raiders around 5pm like that.Ray left at 7 plus cause he had his driving class and Delia came to look for Ryan.Heard from him that she had already started school.So the four of us enjoyed the game.Were like so fed up playing Dark Carnival.Couldn't pass that chapter! ARGH.It's always so near, yet so far.Tsk tsk.

Feeling so so sleepy right now, yet my mind's full of stuffs, and i don't know how to explain it.My head feels so heavy and i just want to sleep and not wake up forever. :(


i ♥ walking in the rain, so no one knows that i'm crying..

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